Getting back on track

So this past week I was really really good about working out and keeping what I eat and drank little.  Not going out for lunch, going to the gym.  I have started a working towards my goal again.

XOXOXO
Vicky

Been a while since I posted last

So I have not posted in a while.  I actually had some medical issues in the start of this year so I stopped taking my hormones and working out.  It had nothing to do with the hormones, and I am better now and back to taking my hormones and today was my first day back to working out .... in the beginning of April and what was my workout for today, my first day back?  Was I working on my beach body, my figure?  No, I was shoveling snow!?!?!?!?  I gained some weight in the start of this year, so now I have a bit more to drop than before, need to get back to daily working out and watching what I eat again.  I will have a nice bikini figure by the end of June.  A bit late, but late is better than never.  I still have the double strength hormones left, so I will finish them off and soon order triple strength hormones.  I think I am going to try and focus on breast growth, get hormone creams that will help it, and a breast pump.  I would like to have small natural breasts for this summer if I can.

XOXOXO
Vicky

End of Year Update

So I have not posted lately cause I have had nothing new to update.  I did stop gaining weight and lost it, but I have not lost anything other than what I gained.  I did manage somehow not to gain any weight last week over Christmas, even though I eat a ton of bad stuff.  Not taking the hormone pills only lasted a couple days.  So I have been taking the normal doses along with using the creams.  My chest is getting a little fuller.  I still have the double strength hormone pills left.  Soon I will order the triple strength, I think I will get the time release capsules then I only need to take one a day, and it will be easier to take the pill at the same time every day, when I get up.  This coming up year I need to get serious about my weight, meaning not skipping working out, maybe even working out twice a day, no more eating out, trying to eat more salads .. I must lose 20 lbs.  I was so upset that I had not lost any weight, over Christmas there are so many good clothing sales!!  And if I hope to drop weight that means what fits me now will not fit me when I lose the weight.  So no more cloths till I can lose the weight!!!

XOXOXO
Vicky

December Update

So I am back from my extended family vacation.  Today I was able to shave my legs for the first time this winter.  The vacation was down south where it was warm and I was in shorts, so I have been unable to shave my legs till now.  It feels so good to have smooth shaved legs in nylons again!  Also I did not take my 'medication' while I was away.  I think the hormones have been causing me to gain weight, I know that is a side effect.  So for the rest of December I am going to not take hormones and focus on working out and taking the diet pills and trying to lose weight.  I am going to be a vegetarian for the next few weeks and see if that helps me.  Also cut out drinking calories, only water.

XOXOXO
Vicky

Update

Been a couple weeks since my last update.  This past week I stopped taking everything other than the diet pills.  So the I guess it was 3 weeks ago I started to gain weight and was always over tiered.  I am not sure what was causing this as I had started the diet pills, and the creams, and the patch, and upped my hormones to double strength.  So it might have been one thing or a combination so I stopped it all.  I was to dead to workout so that might have been why I gained weight.  I no longer am over tiered so this weekend I am starting working out again and will start taking the hormone pills along with the diet pills.  I will give it a week and see how I am before i add in the patch, and then after that the creams.

XOXOXO
Vicky

Hormone Update

Got my newest hormone order today.  This has 3 months worth of diet pills.  It is interesting that their instructions say to take at 9 am and 3pm ... that seems close together but I will follow it.  I also got hormone creams and patches.  So my new plan for my medicine is 3 times a day (trying to be 8 hours between) I take double strength Hormone Replacement Theropy, double strength Anti-Androgen, and double strength Oestrogen Accelerator pills.  In the mornings after I shower I will be putting on an Oestrogen Hormone Precursor 24 hour patch.  And at night I will be using triple strength nipple development cream, triple strength breast development cream, and triple strength hourglass figure cream (I am using it on my waist and sides hoping it will help reduce my love handles), and also at night last time I got a free container of a triple strength Anti-Androgen gel that you rub into your scrotum.  I will see how this all works on me.

XOXOXO
Vicky

Just made another hormone order

So the codes in the ad they send in my last order did not work, so I did not bother to get another 3 months of hormones, tonight I am just starting on the next 3 months of pills so I will wait.  But I did order 3 months of the diet pills, and this week they had a special where you got free hormone body patches.  So I decided to order some body hormone creams.  I ordered their 1 month triple strength hourglass figure cream, 1 month triple strength nipple cream, and 1 month triple strength breast cream.  This was enough to get me 3 free months of hormone 1 a day patches.  So now when this newest stuff comes in I will really be stepping it up.  I will have 2 different doses of anti-androgen ... 3 times a day I will take pills and at night I will use the gel on my testicles and shaft.  I will have 2 different forms of oestrogen hormone .. 3 times a day I will take pills and I will have a one a day patch on.  I will be using diet pills ... and creams on my waist, tummy, nipples, and breasts.  Oh and not to mention the Oestrogen Accelerator pills.

XOXOXO
Vicky

Tonight I start the double strength hormones

So I am almost out of my single strength hormones, I still have some of the HRT pills left, so tonight I will start the double strength pills and probably take one single strength HRT pill as an extra one for a few days till I use them all up.


I have been really good about working out and watching what I eat .. my waist has gotten a little smaller, my pants and belt are looser .. but I am not really dropping any weight.  So as soon as I am done posting this I am going to go order 3 months of the weight reduction pills from http://www.transformation.co.uk/.  I also have a code from my last order to get triple strength Oestrogen time release pills and Anti-Androgen time release pills at 1/3 the cost, so I will be ordering 3 months of those also tonight.  With the time release I just take one pill of each a day and do not need to worry about taking more.  Then I will be all set with hormones for the next 6 months.  I might start trying the new Anti-Androgen gel they send me free with my double strength order .. it is rubbed into the testicles and shaft.

XOXOXO
Vicky

11 weeks on hormones update

So 11 weeks now on hormones, now mind you I am on their low level dosage.  I do notice 2 changes ... my breasts seem a little fully and my manhood seems to take a bit more to get excited and soften up much faster now.  It does make tucking easier!  Soon I should have my delivery of the next 3 months of hormones, I upped the strength this time.  I am working out on a regular basis now.  Cardio once a day (either biking or elliptical machine) and each day I do 40 min of xbox fitness (yoga or pilates or Brazilian butt).  I am losing some weight, I think I went up a little at the start of this week cause I am toning muscle some and muscle weights more than fat, but I know I am losing fat by my waist size and how my clothing fits me.  The Garcinia Cambogia was giving me dry mouth so I cut back to only one serving in the morning, but after a couple days to get used to it I am up to 2 serverings (morning and night).  http://www.transformation.co.uk/ has a weight lose pill which I think in a couple weeks I will order and try and see if that will help me speed up weight lose, also once i drop fat I hope it will help me drop muscle also.

XOXOXO
Vicky

Just ordered my next 3 months of Hormones

So cause my order was high enough I got free Anti Androgen Gel that is to be rubbed into your testicles.  I am going to wait to use these till my 3rd set of pills and pick up the estrogen production Gel pills that you also rub into your testicles.  Then I will add them to my regular pills.  I also did not get the hair stimulate cause it cost almost as much as the other 3 items, and I do think the other stuff is helping fight hair loss.  Currently they are having a sale for buy 1 get 1 free for triple strength ... so I might order the 3rd round of stuff sooner than i need them to get the saving on them.

XOXOXO
Vicky

Workout plans for this coming week

So for working out I plan to workout twice a day this coming week.  Either in the morning I will bike before work or I will go to the gym at lunch and do the elliptical machine.  I really like the elliptical machines as they have arm workouts also, so you get cardio on your arms while you work your legs, and the machine says I am burning more calories .. which I think might be more accurate than my bike cause the elliptical machine asks for age and weight.  Then for my second workouts I plan to do 20 to 30 min of yoga/pilates on the xbox fitness program.  Today I did 4 10 min workouts for my workout.  I did 2 different ab workouts and 2 different lower body workout.  I can change it up so that I am working different parts of my body on different days with the xbox.  Also I can focus on butt and thighs or abs.  They do have a really good Brazilian butt workout that is like 40 min that I used to do.  Also they have Samba workouts .. I might buy them, a dancing workout will help me with moving and dancing as a woman.  I need to do more xbox dancing games to learn to dance like a girl does.

XOXOXO
Vicky

Today is probably the last day I will be able to tan this year.

I wish I had more time to work on my tan lines more, but I think this is going to be the last weekend that I will be able to tan.  Next week I am busy all weekend, then I am away for the weekend, then I have company visiting me for the weekend.  And after that it will probably be to cold to be outside in a little bikini.  I started late working on my upper body tan lines, originally I was just tanning with a bikini bottom.  A while back i picked up a swimsuit from Skin Italy, their Valentine Limited Edition bikini set and decided this year I would tan in that.  There is a cutout out heart on the top of the right butt, and the sides are open with string ties.  Here is a picture of it, but without the side ties.  I do have to say that the heart on my butt is not anywhere as clean as the image shows, it is hard to get the swimsuit lined up perfectly.  Maybe I just need to lay in the sun on my tummy for many hours to get it that perfect.

So originally I was just wearing the bottom to tan, but then I picked up a new 2 piece swimsuit from Victoria's Secrets, a cute strappy set, so I started to wear that top with the above bottoms.  The center is open and it wraps around the back of you.  Then there are crossing straps over the breasts that cross around your neck.  There is another bottom strap that crosses around to your back.

I also picked up their one piece version of this bikini and was going to wear that to get tan line straps over my tummy, but it covered up my bottom fully and when I tanned my back I could not work on my heart butt tan.  So I picked up a new strappy one-piece swimsuit that I have started to wear under the 2 pieces.  The back is small and I am able to pull it fully between my butt so my checks are left uncovered so when I put on the bikini bottoms I can still work on the heart tan.

So now I have been working on getting a nice strappy pattern tan lines.  But I started working on the top tan later, and the tummy tan just recently.  So I wish I had more time to tan.

Last year when I tanned i just had on a thong from Marlies Dekkers, it had a metal triangle just over the butt with some straps.  I have to say I did love the tan lines it left over my butt!!!  Maybe next year I will go back to thong tanning, not sure what I will use for a top/front tan.  Maybe I will just wear the same thong as last year and the bra top that goes with it to get a nice tan on my chest.

XOXOXO
Vicky

10 weeks on hormones!

So I have been taking hormones now for 10-weeks!  I need to order my next 3 months of hormones tomorrow.  This time I am upping form standard strength to double strength.  I still have anti-body hair cream from my first order so this time I will also get hair regrowth cream for the top of my head (I am starting to lose my hair).  I am waiting till my 3 order of triple strength hormones before I order breast and nipple growth cream (that will be in December).  This winter I also plan to get my belly button pierces and probably my ears, but for my ears the question will be can I hide the healing plugs under a hat so people do not see I just got them pierced.  I want to get my tongue pierced also, but I am not sure if I will be able to this winter or not, I need to be able to take a week off work to let my tongue heal some before I can get it pierced .. and I am not sure if I can this xmas, if not next xmas I will get my tongue pierced.

Working out is going well.  I think I am about 5 lbs down this morning.  I have been good about working out.  I started trying to eat vegetarian when I can, less calories and less protein so I hope my body will slim down more.  I have not been eating out and trying to watch how much I eat.  I also started taking Garcinia Cambogia, they claim it helps you burn fat, not store fat, and curb your apatite.  They say to take it before every meal, but when I tried taking it before breakfast and dinner I found i was getting dry mouth, so now i am only taking it before breakfast, after a few days I will try against also before dinner and see if I am used to it or not.

XOXOXO
Vicky

Update

So I think I went a little to hard to fast on working out.  I think it has been 6 or so months since I worked out.  I was trying to work out daily and if I could twice a day.  That was to much to fast, yes I can do it, yes I will get there, actually I will get back to 3 times a day, but I think it was to much to fast.  So this week I am toning it down to once every other day.  And next week I will start workout 2 days, then a day off, then 2 days.  Then the 3rd week every day, then the 4th week try to do workout 2 times once or twice that week.  Easy back into it.

What is my end goal?  By the end of this year I want to be under 150 lbs, I only stand 5'8" so that is a health good weight, that is an achievable weight.  I often get down to 150 lbs and then stop working out till I slowly gain weight, then I workout again and get back down to it.  I have accepted that I just need to not stop working out, I need to tone it down when I get down in weight, but I need to not stop and go crazy eating :(  It is life and if I want a nice feminine figure I need to work out.  Last time I got down to 150 lbs my waist was measuring around 27" give or take.  I was wearing a size small/6 skirt (and size small/4 I could almost wear).  I know I can get there.  I also know it will not take till the end of the year to get there.  I have 3.5 months till the year is over, I know it only takes me 2 months or so to get back down to 150 lbs.  The hard part is getting lower.  I need to get lower, but that will be another goal for next year.  To be honest I do not care what the end weight is as long as I do not have waist fat (no love handles) and my inner thighs do not touch each other when I stand up straight.  I would like to be as thin as I can, but really the end number does not matter if I have the figure.  I am taller than the average woman, I know I am wider shouldered then the average woman, I probably have larger bones then the average woman.  This will all effect my end weight.  I just want to have a womanly figure.  So I guess having a goal of 150 lbs by the end of the year is good, cause that means I need to lose it and keep it off, meaning I need to keep watching what I eat and working out.  And maybe just doing that will help me slowly get even lower before the year is over.

XOXOXO
Vicky

8 weeks on hormones now!

So it has been 8 weeks that I have been taking hormones now.  And I think it is starting to effect my 'manhood'.  I went a week last week without jerking off and never had a wet dream, before if I do not jerk off on a regular basis I have wet dreams.  I think it is also taking more and more to get me hard, also sometimes I do not even get fully hard.

I am keep working out, biking and elliptical trainer.  I am not loosing weight yet, not sure why, I have cut down my calorie intake and trying to up my calorie burn.  Maybe it is the hormones?  I will soon put in a new order for another 3 month supply of hormones, and this time I will get double strength.

XOXOXO
Vicky

Biked twice today

So I was able to get my lazy ass up and out of bed early enough to bike before work.  I also biked again after work.  This is a good start!  My leg are dead right now, my thighs, which is good, I need to burn off bulk, I hope on hormones my testosterone is lower so when I break down muscle I hope my body does not rebuild as much.  I might need to wait till I get on the triple strength hormones before I really see a difference working out.  Friday is 7 weeks out of 3 months.  Once I hit 8 weeks I will reorder 3 more months of hormones at double strength, then when those are done I will get 3 months of triple strength.  I think next time I order I will get a breast pump and hair regrowth cream for my head.  And the 3rd time I reorder get some breast and nipple creams.

XOXOXO
Vicky

Working out

So 2 days down this week and 2 days I biked.  Monday I only biked 20 min, today I biked 25 min, the bike said I burnt 140 calories.  I am only on setting 1, I will probably be there for a bit while I get back used to biking daily.  If I can get up early enough tomorrow I will try to bike before work, and then again after work.  I need to get off my lazy ass and work out and drop weight so I can get a more feminine body.

XOXOXO
Vicky

6 weeks of hormones now

So 6 weeks now on hormones.  I am not sure if it is because of the hormones or because I have been much better about my eating, but I lost 3 lbs this past week.  I was much better about not eating as much, and trying to eat healthier.  I am still not working out, so in order to kick myself in the butt ... starting Monday I am not going to let myself do anything girly till I bike, so no dressing up, no makeup, no riding my Love Glider, no anal play, no touching myself, no looking at porn, no looking at what girl clothing I want to buy next, no scented baths ... none until I work out for the day.  So I can either use the elliptical machine at work during lunch, or bike as soon as I get home from work (or if I get can my lazy butt up in the morning I can bike before work), but I need to do one thing before I can be myself ... I know the elliptical is better for my legs then the bike, biking they say builds your thigh muscles and I want to trim down my thighs, but I have one at home and it is easier to do it on my own time as sometimes work is busy and I do not always take lunch (or skipping lunch means I get to go home earlier also).  But since I just need to workout and lose weight .. biking for now is okay, once I get smaller then I will need to really see how it effects my thighs and if I need to switch to some other workout.

XOXOXO
Vicky

5 Weeks on Hormones

So I past week 5.  I do really think it is working.  The hair on my chest is much lighter and smoother, I can still feel it, but it is much harder to see.  And my butt I do not really feel any hair at all.  I will keep using the hair removal cream till it is done, but then when I reorder in 3 weeks I do not think I will get more hair removal cream.  As for my bust, I do really think my breasts are filling out more.  I am not getting breast nub growth under the nipples (when I first tried hormones and freaked out was when I started to get the small ball under the nipple grew that pushed my nipple out .. like a natural girl would grow .. I am not getting this), but they are fuller.  This morning when I woke up and looked down (I was on my side) it really looked like I had some cleavage they way my body was laying.  They fill out my bra a little better, they are a little more full in my hands!  I really want to pick up breast hormone cream, but I am going to wait till my 3rd order for that, give my body more time to adjust to hormones before I start in on creams.

XOXOXO
Vicky

4 weeks on hormones done!

So yesterday was the start of week 5 on hormones!  I do really think my breasts are filling out a little more.  They look a little fully and more solid.  I also think my waist might be getting smaller cause my belt seems to be getting looser.  I am not sure if the hair is decreasing or not yet, think I might need more time on that (and maybe stop shaving it down).

I also must say that I was able to get the 8" vac-u-lock dildo into my ass, I am using it right now with the Love Glider.  I am a little surprised at how easily it fit into my ass today.  I cannot say enough how much I love this thing.  God so much.  I could ride this thing all day long, and I might for the rest of the day! :)

XOXOXO
Vicky